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We live in different worlds…

“The most loving parents and relatives commit murder with smiles on their faces. They force us to destroy the person we really are: a subtle kind of murder.“

                                                                                                                    Jim Morrison

I started this post in a radically different way, then I deleted everything (simply because I caught myself again trying to sound in a way that would please everbody’s taste) and I am starting over. Instead of explaining what we do and why, I’ll just say:

Although we’re all connected, we’re all separate individuals with free will. I can’t arrange my life according to everyone’s expectations. After all they contradict and trying to please somebody, will automatically displease somebody else. Every situation is different, so I don’t want any roles ascribed, any moulds to follow. If I do wrong, it’s I who is going to pay. Everyone should do the thing he or she believes to be right. Other’s have the right to have their expectations, I have the right not to please those expectations - it’s their own business. We can’t spare other people all the frustration just because they had different vision of things. Moreover, it doesn’t help them grow up because it puts them in a bubble where everything seems to happen the way they want it to happen.

With this I am not trying to defend inconsiderate and selfish people but to throw away the tiresome burden of always taking into consideration irrelevant things that deprive you of your own life.

“… and if I offended you, I’m sorry, but maybe you need to be offended.” - Oscar Wilde

This was my skype message for a long time and I kind of followed this. With the time I became too delicate and careful not to offend anybody but I realize that sometimes I am not helping by doing this. I should reconsider this thought.

I think that if you truly love something you will not only consume it but create it. If you like football, you won’t just watch it on TV but go out and play. If you love music, you’ll try to create some. You may not be good at doing it but that’s not the point. The point is that you should try to create it and enjoy it even if you don’t have any talent for it. It’s what brings more satisfaction - the fact that you created something on your own.

Last week I made a resolution not to worry about everyday stress but today I caught myself doing the same. So this is what I am going to say to myself everytime I realize it:

Nothing matters if you think it’s that way, everything matters if you think it’s that way.

Would you feel insulted if your boyfriend/girlfriend, although not cheating on you, wanted to have other admirers (I mean people who are in love with him/her, not just like him/her) apart from you? If he/she was consciously or unconsciously trying to feed those admirers’ feelings in order not to lose them? Please leave a comment.

Yesterday I got yelled at by a classmate because she stumbled over my feet when I was with my back towards her. It was obviously my fault that I don’t have eyes on my back. If people refuse to bear responsibility for something as unimportant as that how can we expect them to bear it when it comes to something significant?

Today our math teacher was pissed off because she received homework which was a photocopy of another homework. Not only that people don’t respect your efforts, but they are also lazy enough to do such a stupid thing as to turn in a photocopied homework. I don’t know what they expected but this is a hint for they attitude towards things they are responisble for. It seems they are used to that by all the times they were indirectly encouraged to do so which makes them think they could go on like this the rest of their lives.

Sometimes you need a complex of your own things and philosophies to help you cope with everyday life. It could be anything. It may sound funny but even listening to The Doors (at present) or some other kinds of music has helped me accept or understand some of the things that bother me. I am still in search for some more.

I know promised I would write here every day but yesterday and on Friday I had problems with my computer, but today I will compensate with two little posts.

We chase our pleasures here,

dug our treasures there.

I think that those two lines are clear enough, so I need not explain them.